My mum has paid a surprise visit

My mum who lives in N.S.W. has come up for a surprise visit and is staying with us for a week.

I haven't seen her in nearly two years and that is way too long. Her and Joseph are so close and have both been saying how much they miss each other to me.

When mum stays, her and Joseph always sleep in the same room together. Those two have had a very strong soul connection and have done so since Joseph first laid eyes on my mum when he was about 7 months old. And I remember when he first saw mum, he paused as if he was re-remembering something.

I have a photo of when we went down to see her and she is cuddling him and he is snuggling into her, I love that photo and you can see how close they are back then.

You know, after all my growth over the years and particularly the last couple of years, I would have to say this is the first time I am being the real and true me with my family. I didn't realise how I would put a mask on at other times and couldn't relax until recently.

Because I am self monitoring myself automatically all of the time, I noticed that before I was to see her, I found myself starting to want to put an act of some sort on. I was surprised as I started to feel anxious and then I noticed how I was feeling and that I was like putting protection around the real me. Well that is what I did in the past you see, as I was not who I am right now.

And that is when I realised that it really is okay to be the real and true me. As when you are able to be yourself totally with your own family, to me, that means you have dealt with your childhood issues and are free now. It's only taken me 44 years lol.

What just came to me then is the recognition of how huge my shifts have been lately. Being totally honest and open with how I felt in my relationship with Michael and how that changed my life. And during that process I went through and did a lot of releasing of all past relationships

Then, the realisation and relief that I no longer need hide the true me to my birth family, which is a very very big one to deal with. Mind you, I have spent years of dealing with my emotions and working through many layers of family issues, it hasn't just happened over night. And so now I feel free in that area as well.

I cannot express in words how wonderful I feel inside to have faced and dealt with those two areas, I can only say the peace is like nothing else I have felt before.

Love and Peace always

Anastacia